Weight Loss

A little bit about my weight loss saga....

I've always been a yo-yo dieter. I've always wanted to lose more weight- even at my thinnest, and I've always been vocal about it. Bottom line- I love food, booze, and passing a really good time.

I also really love to feel thin, fit, and super hot- be real you do too. Unfortunately, a fast lifestyle and a hot sexy body can't co-exist - ah moderation, my favorite word (HA HA!).

My Junior-Senior year of college, I really started packing on the pound-age. This happened for quite a few different reasons. Stress was a major factor, I became a little to comfortable in my relationship with my now husband, I constantly compared myself to other women and often thought "If she can eat like crap and still look good, why can't I?", with each added pound my self esteem and self worth depleted. It's shameful to admit, but I had all of my self-worth wrapped up in my outward appearance, consequently, my inner self was taking a daily beating. During those last years in college and the one that followed, I essentially lost the spirit of who I really I am.

Rapidly depleting self-esteem and confidence only added to my problems and I allowed myself to be easily influenced by weight loss enablers and sabotagers. I often looked for confidence in all the wrong places.

Additionally, I continuously made flimsy excuses as to why I could not achieve my goals and take control of my own life.

Examples:
It's Friday! I deserve Pasta and Wine! It's Saturday, everyone eats bad on Saturday! Sunday- well Friday and Saturday were a train wreck, I'll start again Monday- did someone say Mexican food? Well I don't want to be rude to my hosts and not eat their food. I'll be out of town so I have to make bad choices. It's so and so's birthday or football game or insert ten thousands other excuses I could make for myself.  I am freaking creative people.

I wasn't ready to commit to my goals and work for the reward. Long story short- it was way past time to find my own tall lady feet and stand on them.

There's always a turning point, a wake up call, a slap in the face, denial ain't just a river in Egypt honey- moment when you decide which one you want more and you're gonna have to put in WORK to achieve your goals.

It was January 2011, 6 months before my wedding. I was at the walk in clinic with the flu, having been sent home from work being too sick to function. Running fever, a runny nose, a headache, body aches, the works. It couldn't get worse right? WRONG. The nurse runs through vitals, blood pressure, height, weight - EEK- I'd been avoiding weighing myself for a LONG time at this point. Because it's always better to hide from your problems instead of facing them right??

It was a big number. The biggest I'd ever seen. The exact number I've only shared with a few of my nearest and dearest, honestly I'm not sure I'll ever be able to share it even here, but I was 61lbs from where I like to be- where i feel hott, sexy, virtually unstoppable. Seeing that big giant- wait your scale must be broken- number felt overwhelming, impossible, emotionally devastating, how had I let this happen to myself? Worse, I had no confidence in myself that I'd be able to fix this, to lose weight, to regain my self esteem, and love me from the inside out. In those moments I felt so alone and hopeless, a true emotional basket case- oh and I still had the damn flu to contend with.  I got to my car before the water works started. I wanted to nurse the feeling with popcorn and peanut butter m&m's, a number 13 from sonic, a fried shrimp po-boy, taco bell, or a box combo with an extra sauce from Cane's. Honestly, I still don't know how I stopped myself, but I drove home and devised a plan. A plan to say bye bye to my formerly fat self. Today, I've lost 41  49 52 of those pounds, and I'm determined to get rid of the last 19lbs 11 8lbs.

Let's take a look at just how bad it was-



That's me. Right there in the middle- December 2010. Fat,  full on chips and dip and 1500 calorie Daiquiris, and thinking to myself - this was just a bad angle, can you believe she posted that of me on Facebook, must untag as fast as possible, pfff that's not what I really look like  - DENIAL!

And some more just in case you thought that picture was a fluke....



Weight Gain in Action. I wish I could go back and tell myself to put down that damn cheese stick!
Looks like i was enjoying it though huh?


That was then and things are a lot different now! I ditched the bottled blonde and reclaimed the real me whose life I adore.

 Here I am at my current weight- 11 8lbs away from my goal. I can hardly believe my dreams are becoming reality. Hard work really does pay off people!


I be up in the gym just working on my Fitness


How did I do it?

I've changed the way I think about food all together. It's just gas for the tank people.
Happiness does not lie at the bottom of chips and dip or dollar margarita night.

I became involved socially at my gym, and surrounded myself with positive can-do fitness for life minded people. There's a saying that makes the fitness and weight loss rounds - "You become like the five people you spend the most time with- choose wisely".

I am now addicted to exercise and those fuzzy endorphins it fuels me with, something I never ever once got from draft beer and trashy thigh glue bar food. 
 
Here's a look at the ongoing progress
Left September 2011 Right September 2012

I continue to be just another girl battling and suppressing her inner fatty and figuring out how to balance this crazy little thing called REAL life and fit fabulousness. The journey continues :)



If you have any questions about absolutely anything weight loss related or other wise please don't hesitate to ask. I love hearing from ya'll! Find me over at Elle Noel on Facebook and be sure to "like" me there! Thanks for following! Stay tuned :)

24 comments:

  1. I am a newcomer to your blog. Love your sense of humor about everything! You are inspirational and look fabulous!

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  2. Just ran across your blog this morning. You're my inspiration to get moving! I just got married in August, and I can't stand to look at our wedding photos, because I'm so disappointed at how much I have let myself go. You're a great example for so many, I'm sure. Keep writing!

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  3. I'm a new follower, thanks for sharing your story

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  4. I am a new follower and found your blog from Holly's blog. Congrats on your success! You have done so well! WTG!

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  5. New follower. Great story, I'm totally motivated!!

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  6. I am a new follower and found your blog through "Where we can live like Jack and Sally". Currently going though my own weightloss journey and in a funk this week. Thanks for the motivation!
    http://firstcamethebaby.blogspot.com/

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  7. I also found your blog through "Where we can live like Jack and Sally?...I'm just embarking on a journey as well and love your blog! Thanks!
    www.twinsmommysonamission.blogspot.com

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  8. oh my goodness - you're so inspirational! I love this. and I love you brunette. [I think WE have more fun!].

    www.littlelessonsinabigcity.com

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  9. Love your blog found through Hubby Jack we have similar stories! I love an inspirational woman! Way to go girlfriend!
    www.runoffyourbum.blogspot.com

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  10. Love your blog girl and you look fabulous! I could be your mother cuz that's how old i am. Thank you for your inspirations. It's a struggle no matter what age!

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  11. I found this blog because I was searching for why southern girls wear white to prom and I saw your pictures and then I read the side thing that said "Former fatty" and was like "NO WAY SHE'S GORGEOUS." and I saw your pictures. Like everything you wrote in this post is like a mirror of myself without the progress. I had made some but I gave up because I fell out of my routine. You give me hope and inspiration to get back on my feet (literally I guess! ) and try, try and try again! I am from your area as well which makes you even more of an inspiration cause it is so easy to fall off the wagon down here , there's always an excuse. You are beautiful. I want to be beautiful like that too. Thank you <3

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  12. I'm a new follower. I was sent by Where We Can Live Like Jack and Sally. You are such an inspiration!

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  13. I love your story! I too am training for my first half -March 24, Dallas Rock n Roll. I am a former fatty (twice in my life-gained it lost it 2x). I have maintained my weight and less little be little for five years now. BTW your blog looks amazing, did you do it all by yourself?

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  14. I've been following you on Instagram after my bestie said you were awesome to follow. This is my first time checking out your blog, and I must say, you are an inspiration. I've been struggling with weight loss for the past 3 years and it's a constant battle. I, too, can come up with every excuse in the world as to why I can't start until "tomorrow." I feel like I still have the mental block that is hard to get rid of, even though I look and pictures and am disgusted in what I see. Thank you for being a true, honest person.

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  15. Wow girl this is awesome! I love it! So motivational!! I'm so glad you said hi and I can't wait to follow along on your running journey! And congrats on your recent half marathon! :)

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  16. Love your blog and journey! So glad to have found you.

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  17. You have done so amazing! Truly inspiring! I am a new follower and look forward to learning and Losing with you! :)

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  18. I just found your blog and I love it. Well done on your fantastic loss. I love how you still embrace real life too! I'm working towards my own weight loss goals and look forward to picking up tips from you along the way x

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  19. This was seriously like reading my own life. I am an emotional eater and have struggled with my weight my entire adult life. Thank you for the motivation!

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  20. I have been following you for quite some time now, and I started thinking, wait? I thought she was losing weight, so checked out this little section, holy buckets you have just inspired me to follow through with my run today, even if it is cold outside! I have those SAME Pictures of denial..and being shocked that someone would tag a horrendous picture! I love your blog, and LOVE the snacks post today!!! Thanks for keepin it real, and reminding me of why I started this journey!!

    xoxo
    Lindsay

    cowboybootsandanapron.blogspot.com

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  21. I am getting married in exactly 6 months (November 23, 2013!) and came across your blog today. It's fate I tell ya! Three years ago I lost 80 pounds, and in the past 10 months, I put 10 of it back on. Super frustrating, but I am determined to lose it before my wedding day so I can look and FEEL great on the best day of my life. THANK YOU for the inspiration to get back on track!

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  22. Love your story! Mine is kinda similar and I am currently facing that ugly number on the scale. SO GLAD I found you today!

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  23. I love your story. I'd love to interview you soon as many tall women need to be inspired by someone their height.

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    1. Krista- I'd love you work with ya! You're set to no-reply blogger so I can't respond directly to your comment. Please shoot me an email ellenoelfitness@gmail.com

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